You ever get into something thinking it’s going to be difficult but believing you can handle it, only for it to kick you down and prove you wrong? Yea, I’m not there yet but this project is certainly trying to do just that to me. Part of it is the design of things in my world, part of it is the sheer amount of work and thought that goes into everything that makes up this world and writing about it.
Admittedly, part of me is rushing things, which is not a helpful thing to do. But I am determined to do this. I won’t lose this fight. It will simply take time, lots and lots of time. And right now I am sorry to say that what I am working on is not something I can put up on this site yet. So my progress is invisible to anyone lurking here, and I apologize for that.
Books take time to create, and although I wanted to do things faster than I am, I cannot ignore the fact I need time to do this. Lots of time. I cannot explain how small a project this was originally and how big its become. I never thought it would ever become something like this. It was meant to be a basic story written for my kids, something I would enjoy and hope they would enjoy. Something to leave them to always have from me. And now, now I have plans and wants to do so much more, its simply overwhelming.
And that’s a big part of my issue, being overwhelmed. I am sure that I’m overthinking a good amount of the world building but I don’t know how else to work on it really. It’s my world, I need to know as much as I can if I am ever going to bring it to life for my kids, or anyone else. I want to know everything I can about my world too, so if it’s time and a lot of effort that I need in order to do that, I will have to ask everyone to wait for me. That includes giving myself the time and grace I need for this. Which I find very difficult.